Too many flights all at once. I am so tired now I could sleep for a week but I cannot. That I managed to slip away at the height of fashion week can only be due to some help from my cousin I am sure. I will have to thank him and the pilot for getting me to Japan as quickly as they did.

I managed to be at the finish line. I am glad I did. I just wished I could have stayed longer.

After this, I have another flight. Back to Japan to film the next episode of Star Rangers then it is off to England for London Fashion Week... We are actually doing a filming for Tea Society there. Hopefully I will be so busy that a certain co-star will not try and ask me out.

I am going to catch a little sleep and then I must be off to the show.

I love this time of year. I have all the decorations up. The tree was the very last thing to go up. I needed to find just the right one. Minoru helped. He also helped me decorate. I took his wheels off so he could get a rest but he still looks so energetic and ready to go decorate some more.



I am thinking of throwing a New Years celebration this year. I need to make some calls, but I hope to have invitations out soon.

I finally had to talk to my costar about his unwillingness to do romantic scenes with me. I got our agents involved as well. My agent speaks fluent German so it was for the best. Because he could translate me as I found all the things I wanted to say I could not say in Japanese. I need to work harder on expanding all the words I know.

He says it is because he does like me. He is attracted to me. He does not want to do those scenes with me because he wishes for it to be real, and doing it as acting is painful for him. He says maybe if I was to go out with him, it would be easier. I do not wish for things to be difficult. But I do not know if I like him like that. But to help the show, I suppose I can at least go to a movie or the amusement park with him. But I do not want to lead him along.

I do not know what to do.

I can still not talk about one of the shows I am filming. I should be able to in a couple more episodes. The directors say it is because if I do, I will spoil the surprise. Though with all the fan mail I have been receiving, I do not think it will be very much of a surprise. Still, filming this is very fun.

The other show I am on is going well. Sometimes, there are some awkward moments between myself and my costar. I realize that this is supposed to be a growing romance between us, but he keeps making these faces at me when we are to be having a serious moment and I lose it. I end up laughing and we have to film it over again. I wish he would not do that. I understand it is to make me feel less awkward, but I think the director might get mad at me if I keep losing my composure.

Another thing I am looking forward to is a day off. I have not had one in a while. I must be careful now as I have many fans, so I must watch where I go and what I do. But I think this weekend, I will enjoy myself and perhaps take a walk in the park. If I wear sunglasses, maybe no one will recognize me.

I cannot just lay in bed and mope forever. I know I cannot. But it feels like my world has ended. But I have work to do. I have a new show to start filming. I have a leading role. And there is another show that I have to be more quiet about, but it is a co-starring part. I need to get up and make myself do this. But it is hard. I feel like there is nothing I can do. I feel like this will just happen again and I do not want to feel like this anymore. But I do not know what to do.

So I am thinking that maybe I need to make a change about myself. I know it is strange, but I feel that i need to start fresh. He really really liked my hair...so maybe if I cut it all off... I will have to look at my contracts and see if I am even allowed to change my image like that. But if I can...

Fans. Friends. Family.

What do you think about this style?

We shot the final scene for the movie today. It was a lot of work but it is something I would enjoy doing again. Everyone cheered and celebrated when the director said "cut" for the last time. I am a little sad it is over but I know this will bring me big things in my career as an actor.

I have another week here that I am planning on spending with my family in Ingolstadt. I have not seen them in so long it feels like. And I am going to be spending some more time with Sergei as well. It is nice to have caught up with old friends. I wonder if he would play a match with me, for old time sake.

Today, I took some time while we weren't filming to enjoy Austria. It feels amazing to speak in my native tongue again. I love Japan very much, but I really miss being home. Even if home is about 4 hours away from here.

I did run into an old friend. I was very surprised. Sergei from when I was in middle school at Negoya was in Austria on vacation from Russia. We have decided to meet up while I am still here so we can catch up. There are many many things I wish to tell him about!

Today I filmed my last episode of Star Rangers. I have never died that many times right in a row. I think it took 32 takes to get it right because it was so dramatic and everyone kept laughing and ruining the tension. I only have a few extra scenes to do for the final episode at the end of June, but then that is it. Star Rangers is over. It has been an amazing experience for me and I have learned so much. I have made many friends and met many fans who love me and my character.

Now I focus on the movie. A really large part of the shooting will be taking place over the summer. I look forward to it quite a lot. I have a lot of lines to learn and I have to go to fittings for my costumes and sit for a few hours in hair and makeup every day.

I also have a few more commercial shoots to do. Taichi. That commercial for Royal Briefs was so much fun. I have never laughed or enjoyed myself so much. Running around Tokyo in my underpants was very strange and sort of liberating.

It is hard be believe that there are only five more episodes of Star Rangers left. I have had so much fun acting in it. I will be sad when it is over. But with endings become beginnings. This is the right words, yes?

I am allowed to make the announcement. I will be having a role in the Live Action movie version of Dragon Knights. I will be playing Rune. It seems like it will be a lot of fun. It will also keep me very busy. It will be coming out next year.

I am on the way to the airport. I have been in Paris for Fashion Week. I have done all the runway work I needed and I am just enjoying being here with my friends. However, it is White Day. From what I understand, White Day is a big thing in Japan. So I am catching a flight back so I can spend it with Akaya.

It will be a very long flight but I should make it in time.